Cold slowly crawling on my feet
Is eating the last bits of sadness;
I can’t feel my toes anymore.
I am happy to see you smile
When I spend my hours drinking my life away,
And waiting for it to be over.
I wish you saw,
I wish you could understand
That I need this,
I need it more than you see I do.
I wish I were transparent,
I wish you saw through me all the time,
Giving me the space
To detach myself
From you.