Everything I have ever known
Flipped upside down in a second,
Not giving me time to adjust…
…when I saw her.
Effusing the elusive light,
Collaring me and all of my insides,
Immobilizing my being,
She made me regret
Every decision that had led me
To that moment,
And yet I was bursting
With inexplicable ecstasy.
Those thin wrists had so much
Power over me.
I was ready to drown in the abysmal wells
Of her eyes
Over and over again.
The stare made me weak,
For a second
I thought I heard her heartbeat;
So calm.
Her lips moved.
One, two, three more seconds
And she stepped forward.
Forward to the rails.
A train. A hit.
Silence.
White dress covered in blood,
Beautiful face with eyes wide open.
They were still staring into me.
I snap my eyes shut.
I am not there anymore.
I am strapped to a therapy bed.
I hear the blurry “Increase the voltage”
And feel my insides being twisted again.
Just a dream. Please, come back to me.
I do not wish to wake up.
